Something to chew on by dragon-fly-to-me, literature
Literature
Something to chew on
I love the sound of crinkling cellophane. It drags me back to childhood with memories of after school snacks, Christmas, a grandma or two and candy.
As I gently pull the opposite ends of the Smarties wrapper, I watch it twist and unfurl--a kaleidescope ripe for spilling sweet, round, colorful disks into the palm of my hand.
I'm on my fourth one.
Maybe I'm addicted?
All I know is, when I'm unwrapping this musical plastic and then crushing the hard packed sugar between my teeth--
while all that flavor bursts upon my tongue and makes my throat constrict just a little more--
when I am re-tasting my childhood--
--I'm not thinking about livers
I am dying. I am dying and there's nothing I can do about it. I know this, but I refuse to believe that I will just fade away quietly: that when I'm gone and when those that knew me are gone, that there will be nothing more of me in existence. I want to be remembered; I want to make a mark. Is it not the human condition to desire this?
I feel that no matter what good thing I attempt to pursue, it takes me somewhere that I had never intended to be, and that much further from my goal. Every consequent step taking me further down a tangential path I never consciously made. I have two hands and a voice and the knowledge of how to use them, but I
Is anyone there?
Can anybody hear me?
Are these messages
Coming through clearly?
Over a year has gone by
Since I felt the ground beneath me.
How much longer must I wait
Till these binding walls release me?
There are so many worlds
Left to be discovered.
My mind is set on new horizons,
But you're holding me back.
If you are listening to this
Than we have reached the other side.
We've chosen the path
That you so readily denied.
Time, time
It only takes time
Wait it out...Wait
It only takes time
What–
What do you want from me?
I refuse to be the coal
That burns in your machine.
Why–
Why do I even try?
Fly away
Fly away to this peace of mind.
Break away for just a moment
Break away
Fly away
Fly away to this peace of mind.
Break away for just a moment
Break away
Escape reality
And let your soul unfold.
Arrive at wit's end and
Feel yourself consoled.
Look away.
Reach out and let go.